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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Aug 5, 2015 16:43:42 GMT -5
Personal Log, Billie Jo Spencer, Stardate: 92817.86
Under the guise of an engagement party, several of us traveled to Risa to investigate the group that has been performing surveillance on us. I was not particularly confident that we would turn up any useful information. And, I am still not sure we have. We did learn something about the extent to which these people have gone to keep tabs on us though. What is it that is so important to them? That they would go to this much trouble to spy on us?
We learned that these people followed us to Risa with an entire team of spies. In fact it turned out that the bartender at my favorite spot was apparently a spy sent to keep watch over me, or maybe more than that I don't know. I'm starting to wonder if anyone in my life is who they claim to be. The only other clue we found was a letterhead on a piece of paper. I did a search of the symbol on the letterhead and determined it was the astrological symbol Gemini. In Greek mythology it represent the twins Castor and Pollux, both demi-god sons of Zeus. I am not sure what the significance of the symbol in this case is. Is this Gemini a person or a maybe a group of people?
Anyway, I spent the evening running around the resort island with Vareiya Oradar's intended. His name is Devin Stadi and to say the least he is pleasant to look at. Additionally Commander Asada will be sad to learn he has serious competition with respect to the most muscular abdominal muscles.
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Sept 3, 2015 11:34:54 GMT -5
Personal Log, Billie Jo Spencer, Stardate 92885.28
After last night these shadow creatures may think twice before messing with us. But, I have this terrible feeling in the pit of my stomach that say they may not be so easy to get rid of. At least for the time being the entity on Travadi has been put in its place. The being named Sharia chased the dark being she called “the one who eats” off. I can't say for sure the creatures final disposition, is it alive or dead. Or, does that question have any real meaning for these beings? I also am uncertain what became of Sharia as I have not had any further contact with her as of this time. But, these events raise another matter.
The primary reason that Sharia was able to defeat the shadow creature was because so many of us were able to join in its song and give her the strength to fight. While so many of us, me , Denise, the refugee children, and some many voices from Travadi lent our songs to this effort none of it would have been possible if it wasn't for K'Rika and her telepathic gifts. It was her mind that joined us together and connected us to Sharia. I was as amazed by this display of raw mental power as I think she was. To date there had been no indication of this sort of potential. And, that is troubling.
With such an open display all in front of the watchful gaze of all of our Project:Salvation spies, there will be no way to hide it. It isn't as if I can simply omit certain facts from the official report. I worry what both sides will decide to do. All I know is I won't let them take her away and use her as a guinea pig, or worse as some sort of living weapon. Of course it begs the question about what I can actually do to stop it from happening. I need to find out where Morgan stands on this issue. I am hoping that he will agree to back me on this issue. If he doesn't then it is quite possible I have misjudged him as person. Of course even if he does agree with me, is there anything he could do about it either?
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Sept 9, 2015 11:59:21 GMT -5
Personal Log, Billie Jo Spencer, Stardate 92885.70
I am definitely thinking a nice comfortable civilian job would be less stressful. Still friends of mine are in trouble, so I have to do what I can to help them. This strange illness that causes people to fall into a deep coma like sleep is proving to be hard to combat. The drug formula we were provided does not seem to have any effect on this new, strain. I suspect it is because of the fact that the telepath behind it is different from the others. But, until we determine who is behind it we can't be sure. Either we need to find the enemy agent and stop them. Or, I need to find a compound that blocks the telepath. I am trying to modify the original formula based on the biochemistry of Vareiya and Devin. So far I have had little success. But, I will keep trying. If the attack is in fact telepathic in nature, Vareiya and Devin may need to fend off the attack on their own. If that is even possible.
Speaking of enemy agents on board. I find it highly suspicious that Teresa Unger just so happened to be the first responder in both attacks by this telepath. Being human it is unlikely she can be responsible for these attacks, at least not by herself. But, we have known that we have had spies on board for some time now. I am wondering why they have decided to play their hand now. What ever the reason it has something to do with the Travadi system. At this stage, especially with Morgan incapacitated like he is, I have no idea who I am supposed to trust. I find myself in the uncomfortable position of being force to trust people on pure faith alone. Lieutenant Brand is one of those people. I don't like the idea but, I will have to trust him to be able to solve this mystery. We have this telepath on board and unless they are stopped, more of the crew will fall victim to their attacks.
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Nov 24, 2015 6:00:06 GMT -5
Billie Jo leaned forward in the chair in front of the tiny computer screen. “Computer, begin log.”
The computer voice was pleasant enough, but still sounded mechanical. “Log recording, beginning.”
“Personal log, Billie Jo Spencer. Stardate 93099.53.
I have been on this ship going on three years now, it feels like forever. Yet it seem I have never really gotten to know any of my fellow crew members. I suppose a lot of that is my fault for not trying very hard. But, to be honest I have been distracted by this business with Salvation. Also, most of them seem reluctant, at best, to get involved on a personal level. I haven't figured out if it is just me or if they are just really private individuals. I am of course thinking about this at the moment because of a strange conversation I had with Ensign Sebetharen Adryan after the mission debriefing for the assault on the Iconian dreadnought.
After the rest of the crew had left the mess hall, the ensign stopped me and asked me if I was afraid of him. His inquiry seemed to stem from a sense of confusion about what happened during the assault. He was trying to make sense of why our friend in the cargo bay chose to surrender to us as opposed to fighting to the death. To me it seemed simple. We won her trust and thus surrender became a realistic option. But then again I do have access to information that Ensign Adryan doesn't. But more on that in a minute.
He asked me if I was afraid of him, and he expected and honest answer. I suggested that it isn't always the case that when we ask for the truth that we really want to hear the truth. But, none-the-less I answered truthfully. I told him I was afraid of him. To be honest one glance at his medical records and it is easy enough to become concerned. The last counselor he saw, which mind you was back before he was transferred to the Sentinel, had concerns about anger management issues. Even I developed certain concerns early on about his mental well being. After he showed up in sickbay with injuries from engaging in training simulations with the holodeck safeties disengaged. At the time I kept the incident off the record. Of course, there is also the matter of the involuntary manslaughter he was disciplined for, back when he was with the Omega force. I think all of that provides plenty of justification to for any concerns I may have regarding the ensign. But, More than any of that my answer was based primarily on something else. I specifically mentioned to him that the circumstances surrounding Marc Dalton's death, as a justification for my fears. I tried to explain myself without going into any real details. I stated that me and Marc were not that different. But, in the end I am sure the ensign did not understand my point.
It is of course hard to explain that statement without going into details that I am as yet uncomfortable sharing with others. Both Marc and I were subjects of the Guardian program. While it is true that the powers that Marc exhibited were, as Sebetharen stated, almost god-like. It has to be understood that he didn't start out that way, this one something the Administrator did to him. I don't know how she did it, just that she did. Given the strange abilities I have been manifesting, I have to wonder how far away from becoming another Marc Dalton am I, really. I mean I had a telepathic conversation with an Iconian, for God sakes! What sort of a freak have I become? If these abilities became a threat to the ship and its crew, would Ensign Adryan hesitate to kill me in the same brutal fashion that Marc's life was ended? I can't help but feel the answer would be no.”
Billie Jo paused as she let out a long breathe. “Not that this is the only concern that has surfaced recently. It would seem that the dealings that Jonathan Cameron and I have had concerning Alice Walker and Project Salvation may have triggered certain repressed memories in Tiberius Asada, the ship's executive officer. I have long since suspected that he was a product of some sort of Romulan genetic engineering program. But, up until recently it has never appeared to be a pressing issue.
During a conversation between me and Jonathan, Tiberius had what seemed to be a psychotic break. He fled through the ship in a state of panic and security has to subdue him. After being sedated in sick bay he returned to normal. But, in the state he had hallucinations of being experimented on by Romulans and even believe I was some sort of Romulan scientist. I suggested to Tiberius that he seek counseling. I can't be sure he will follow that advice. But, either way I have to continue to monitor this situation, both for his sake and for the safety of the crew. Not that Lieutenant Commander Asada is the only member of the crew that has given me reason to be concerned about their mental health.
Speaking of concerns...” Billie Jo pause, apparently to think about what she was about to say. “I am uncertain if I should be concerned or not. While I really like Shantal Arnimane, I feel like she is a good person. She is typically pleasant and fiercely loyal to her friends. Not to mention one of the best engineers in Starfleet. But, to be honest I have always been intimidated by her. Let's just say, I would not want to be her enemy. There is however more. She has a secret, I fear it may be something terrible. I say this because her records, especially her medical records seem to be scrubbed clean. Basically, the parts that are not redacted provide very little information on her. Plus, she seems to possess certain abilities that would appear to go beyond anything recovered Borg are known for. I wonder if these abilities are typical for her species, or if they were acquired by other means, perhaps illegal experimentation. Given that most of her medical information is either listed as unknown or is totally redact, it is hard to say at this point.
A case in point is out recent assault on the Iconian dreadnaught. For most of our time there Shantal was connected to the ship's mainframe. She was inside the Iconian system for over an hour. She claims she was “lost.” Which I am not disputing her claim. But, I am not completely ignorant of computer science. I took basic computer courses at the academy. I know that given the incredible processing speeds of computers perception of time would be compressed. Any one interfacing with the system would experience the same. Which suggest to me that a lot more occurred during her time in the system than she has admitted so far. Given the M'Tara's reference to her during our telepathic conversation, I am convinced there is more to the story. I wonder if I should press her for details or not. If she hasn't mentioned it, I am sure she must have a good reason.”
Billie Jo pauses and glances over to her bed. “Well that is bout it. That is all I wanted to say. End log.”
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Dec 20, 2015 0:25:52 GMT -5
Billie Jo sat quietly in medical lab 7b. She stared quietly at the vial of bright blue liquid in her hand. She closed her eyes and exhaled slowly before speaking.
"Computer begin log recording.."
The computer responded, "Log recording..."
"Personal Log Billie Jo Spencer, stardate xxxxx.xx. After my encounter with the operative Gemini I realized the significant advantage that the Administrator had over us. She has the capacity to create soldiers with ESP abilities at will. While I appreciate the fact that our side has take the moral path and chosen not to go down the same dark path. I fear we may find it necessary if we want to win this fight.
Not that I recommend using the same immoral methods as the Administrator, but, we have to consider fighting fire with fire. As they say. After having had access to the Guardian records I know that there were several promising avenues of research that were abandoned when the Administrator introduced her final protocol. I will of course begin with these methods in hopes that one of them will produce the sorts of results we need.
I will be try bringing Tiberius Asada into this project with me. I think of all the members of the crew he would most likely understand what I am doing here. Plus with his telepathic abilities he would make a good test subject.” She stopped and paused and once again breathed out slowly. "May God have mercy on my soul...End Log."
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Dec 28, 2015 1:44:37 GMT -5
Billie Jo stared at the camera with an almost frightening level of intensity. There was also a look of stress, brought on by lack of sleep.
She exhaled sharply before proceeding, “Computer begin log recording.”
“Log recording.” The computer responded.
“Personal Log, Billie Jo Spencer, Stardate 93179.98. Now that the music has been removed from my mind things are so much clearer to me now. I know why she picked me. I know what my purpose is. I have been fighting my destiny for too long. Not any more. It is my destiny to help usher in a new age. The creation of a new type of human being. Better, stronger, smarter. More advanced.
They don't understand her work. So how can they understand what I have to do? Discovery requires experimentation. Experimentation is necessary for progress. A species that doesn't make progress dies. The Administrator she understood this. I see the truth in it now. How could I have been so blind? But, the others they still resist. I can not make them see.
They continue to hold Tiberius as if he were some threat to them. I suppose they may have a point. he is the future. He threatens those small minds that wish to cling to the past. Like so many rats clinging to broken fragments of a sinking ship. They are just in the way now. Survival requires sacrifice.”
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Jul 26, 2016 4:25:45 GMT -5
Personal Log, Billie Jo Spencer, Stardate: xxxxx.xx
“I have no idea what the future holds for me at this point. Previously I would have been worried sick. Oddly enough I find I feel no anxiety over the situation. Whatever happens, will happen.” Billie Jo started speaking, then paused and stared at the camera for several moments. “I suppose I should fill in some details, you know for context. After years of manipulation at the hands of Project Salvation and Mister Diamond, things finally came to a head recently. Ultimately, events on the starbase involving Tiberius Asada helped move things along. I found out what it was that Diamond was trying to do. He was trying to reshape my personality. While maintaining my intelligence and creativity, he wanted to strip away those aspects of my personality that conflicted with what him and his master wanted from me. Basically he wanted to do away with my sense of compassion, and my sense of right and wrong. He wanted to turn me into a monster like him. His efforts were only partially successful. I wound up with a split personality. Basically one good and the other evil, although in the end it did seem that even my evil half wasn't completely evil. More scared and lost than anything I suppose. I can relate.” She stated, then exhaled sharply before continuing.”Anyway despite my wishes, K'Rika took action. She attempted a telepathic link with me. At the time I was in an unconscious state and couldn't object. I objected to any suggestion she do just this very thing. My fear was she would be harmed and truth is she was. In the end things turned out for the best, thanks to an intervention on the part of the Travanyei. And, I am so glad things worked out the way they did. But, what if they didn't. I try not to think about that, but I can't help it. Truth is I can't really blame her. I myself couldn't imagine standing by idly while someone I loved was in danger, especially if I felt I had the power to make things right. So I guess that is that, I certainly refuse to be angry with her. K'Rika used her telepathy to merge both aspects of my personality back together. And honestly I have not felt this whole for as long as I can remember. I have developed a whole new sense of peace and contentment.” Billie Jo paused. “Of course the process was I think perhaps the last straw in terms of how much trust the crew was willing to extend me. I am confined to quarters and awaiting a review process back at command. This review process will likely decide my future in Starfleet.” She says then with a shrug of her shoulders, “What ever happens, will happen. Or perhaps que sera, sera.” She says with a chuckle. “I'm certainly not worried about it. Which is a new thing for me. End Log.”
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Aug 15, 2016 9:41:37 GMT -5
Personal Log, Billie Jo Spencer, Stardate 93764.91
Well I think that this makes it official, there are elements in Starfleet command interested in making my existence as unbearable as possible. But, seriously a dilithium mining station? If I was in fact as terrible at my job as everyone seems to think, why not just boot me out of Starfleet entirely. That would be the logical course. No they want to keep me around. Where they have access and control. They just want to make sure I am isolated and alone. Truth to be told though I was already that way while on the Sentinel. I suppose Commander Shantal has a point, that I brought this on myself for not trusting the rest of them and reaching out to them for help. There is one thing she doesn't understand, bad things happen to people who try to help me. Amanda, Morgan, Joshua. Even K'Rika was injured trying to fix my broken mind. If the Traveyni, had not intervened to help her who knows how bad it would have been. Then there is the reality that I have some serious personal trust issues. An unfortunate side effect of having been part of Salvation for as long as I was. You learn to expect the worst from people. And let's face it it wasn't as that lack of trust wasn't both ways. I honestly can't say the Sentinel crew is not better off without me. They probably feel the same way if they are being honest about it.
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Nov 20, 2016 14:03:57 GMT -5
Billie Jo entered her office and shut the door. After closing the blinds on the windows she sat down at the desk. “Computer begin personal log.”
The system acknowledged, and Billie Jo stared into the camera awkwardly for several moments before speaking again. “Personal Log, Billie Jo spencer, Stardate 94010.07. Is it over? The last and most destructive of the project Salvation monsters has been taken down. So the answer would seem to be yes. But, why then do I have this horrible suspicion that we missed something important.” she begins and then pauses briefly. “I guess it doesn't matter. Now is the time to rest and recuperate. We can worry about the rest later. Joshua has been rescued.” again she pauses this time to wipe the tears from her eyes. “He will have a long road to recovery and after that who knows what the legal ramification of his activities as an operative for Salvation and his time as Chorus' host will be. No matter what though he will have family standing by him.” She says with a smile.
She sighs sadly, “It would seem that Morgan has made his choice and doesn't want to see me again. It would be easier for me to convince myself to hate him. But, I can't do that. I will continue to have these feeling for him, even if he refuses to reciprocate. I am uncertain what command intends to do with him. With the current atmosphere, he could face serious charges just by virtue of his association with Salvation. I am hoping those charges take into consideration that he was not a party to most of the really bad stuff Salvation did. Then there was his lapse of judgment on Chimera. I can't help but feel there was more to that than he has admitted. In any case, I will stand by him through this, or at least as close by as he will allow me to.”
Billie Jo rubbed her temples, “Then there is K'Rika and Alice Walker. Both present issues that require my immediate attention. It would seem that during the battle on Chimera K'Rika absorbed the Chorus entity into herself somehow. He has not been particularly forthcoming about what exactly happened and why. But, I get the impression that this was more of a rejoining than anything else. In spite of her reassurances, I can't help but find this concerning. One one level there is the destructive potential of the Chorus entity. Then there is the reality that like Salvation, other persons of sinister intent may come looking to take K'Rika and exploit her abilities for their own evil ends. Right now my only option is to try and learn as much as I can about K'Rika to figure out exactly what her abilities are and how much of a danger those powers represent. I know the most immediate threat to her seems to come from this new agency Avalon. However, things are in the works to bring that group to heel. I have done my best to help speed that process along.
Then there is the matter of Alice Walker. To be honest I am at a loss to know how to help her. The problem seems intractable. I think the first step is to locate this person she is acting as an 'echo' of. Then we can try and see if anything can be done for both of them. To that end, I have been considering this Watchtower device that Victor brought on board. It may allow of to track the location. It could essentially allow us to track the echo in real time. It would likely involve a certain amount of risk. How much? I do not know, not without further study.
Either way, both problems will require me to re-engage in research that I thought I had put behind me when I left Salvation. I feel like I am far wiser by time and my experiences to be able to approach such research in a responsible manner and not be corrupted by it. But I suppose we shall see. End log.”
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Jan 20, 2017 6:12:17 GMT -5
Billie Jo stared into the camera, her eyes had a haunted look to them. “Personal Log, Billie Jo Spencer, Stardate 94152.46. If it wasn't clear before it is now. The creature I knew as Mister Diamond is not what he appears to be. His appearance to me as a middle aged Betazoid male is some sort of disguise or illusion. What he is and what his connection to the shadow creatures that attacked us is still unclear. I know he is connected to the attacks on the Sentinel because he revealed himself to me on the lift just before the attacks began. I don't know what his game is. Am I part of it all, or does he just get some perverse pleasure in tormenting me? I was hoping that perhaps he was on the run and I would never have to deal with him again. That, it seems was too much to hope for. What ever his plans are it seems he is trying to clear the board of any one who can be a threat to him. He tried to kill the captain of the Adagio and its executive officer, who is also the sister of our own executive officer. I can't help but think that perhaps he has bitten off more than he can handle this time. Still I fear this will get worse before it gets better. Diamond's attack on the Sentinel seemed to be aimed at K'Rika. It is unclear if he wishes to kill her or capture her. Either prospect is frightening. This time we were able to fend off the attack. But, the cost was terribly high. Next time we may not be as lucky, unless we can develop an effective countermeasure against these creatures.”
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