Post by kara on Oct 1, 2010 15:31:44 GMT -5
Lt. Kara Reese personal log, temporary station aboard the Giselle, Star Date 88354.30
Busy few days.. haven't been able to talk to the captain like I planned, which is probably a good thing given I'm likely to run away at the mouth and end up with a demerit or the brig. <Audible sigh> I resolved to be calm, and I promised Captain Nyoko I wouldn't embarrass her or the fleet... but seriously something seriously wrong with upper brass if this previous inspection is any sign...
Umm what else.... Spoke with my mother yesterday from DS9 she's terrifed, hates that I'm in space wants me home, working on my sculptures and my drawings. I send her all my new stuff but she claims its not the same, and she can't watch me work on them. <A chuckle> She can't see how stressed I am either, I guess thats a good thing. Dad is frightened too, all his kids in star fleet I know he's proud but... I know he wanted something else for his only daughter.
After the fighting on DS9 my mother didn't sleep until she got my message, dad said she was asleep in a chair before I even said good bye, she must have been worried sick... No friends to speak of yet, but with temporary status on the Giselle not really a surprise, people are nice enough and the nurses are kind, the first officer is Bajoran and invited me to have prayers with him... I think I'll take him up on the offer.
Well, 1930 hours, I gotta head up to the bridge meeting with the captain tonight... heres hoping this isn't my last log from the Lady G.
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< Supplemental >
Well that didn't go how I planned, the Captain heard out my complaint, acknowledged that it was valid, then much to my surprise didn't write me up, or put me in the brig...
She assured me that Bajor was protected even if it wasn't the 22nd doing the protecting... at first I didn't believe her, I would have noticed other ships.. but as she spoke, bluntly, directly and with integrity... I found myself putting cynicism behind me, she gave me her word and I accepted it. She explained the situation, and then made it very clear, that if I still wished to press the complaint against the admiral she would come up to the stand with me, the whole way... I still expect nothing would actually happen, but it takes a lot for a captain to promise such things.
I decided to calm myself, restore my Pagh, speak with my father and my Prylar...
The Captain was open with me, and trusted me... I find myself afraid of betraying that trust... more because of the offer made to me in the last few minutes of our time in her ready room. I'm not sure I'm ready for such commitment, I can fight... I WANT to fight... but, my skills are rare, and needed... Damn it Professor Alans said it would be like this.
I will follow the path set for me by the Prophets
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