Post by Lt Commander Marcus Aquila on May 18, 2019 0:28:21 GMT -5
Marcus
Marcus walks outside Anne's quarters and presses the chime
Dahlia
Preceding Log
Dahlia closes her log, pausing before asking the question she knows the answer to already. "Computer, who is at my door?"
Computer
Lt Aquila.
Dahlia
"Allow entry, bring lights to 20%"
Marcus
Marcus Enters Greetings.
his voice is warm but unsure
Dahlia
Calling from behind the beaded curtains of the bedroom "I'm in the bath Telemachus, pour yourself a drink if you like."
Marcus
he does so I am glad you were able to have success with the Scrythi. Perhaps they will return favor and free slaves.
marcus moves into the bedroom
Dahlia
"That is in the hands of the diplomats. I want it, bit I would not withhold the treatment to get it. I'm glad you are here. I was thinking about you."
Marcus
With hope it was favorable thoughts.
Dahlia
"Yes, and no... to be honest. It is with love my thoughts and feelings toward you, but frustration as well. Thank you for giving me some time to think, I know it's been filled with work, but you would be surprised how the work helps me to order my mind."
Marcus
I needed time to reassess as well.
he still hasn't come into the bathroom
Dahlia
"I am glad for this."
Marcus
I do not pretend to understand how this as affected you. Given revelations learned in Philadelphia, I suspect you also are not fully aware.
Attempting to do so was my error.
Dahlia
"I have a great deal of practice in dealing with loss, death and destruction. But I find that does not make it easier, piling more dead into my wake. They are as anchors, dragging me down."
Marcus
I am also not entirely certain the Luminaire Zava did not simply take my grief from me.
As you would a lodged projectile in flesh.
Dahlia
"if she did, she did you a favor. But my grief is part of me, i would not have it removed."
Marcus
It was not my intention to have it done.(edited)
Dahlia
"I need you to understand Marcus... I feel grief, and guilt over Sif, and all the rest of them. But there is so much more that I'm dealing with."
Marcus
Give voice to word and share it.
Dahlia
"I ... I am still trying to find that voice. For now, it is too vague. Too confusing to explain."
Marcus
This is not a burden you must carry alone any longer Anne.
One I choose to share with you, over other things that may leave me absent them.
seems like he's not telling her something
Dahlia
She rolls in the tub and pulls herself up over the back, resting her elbows and forearms on the rim, and chin on her hands. She peers through the bamboo beads at him in the bedroom. "I know I'm difficult, but I am trying."
Marcus
he moves in closer through the beads A statement well known. Fortunate for you challenge brings heart to passion, and cock to rise.(edited)
he leans in to kiss her
Dahlia
She lifts her chin from her hands to accept his kiss, likely disappointing him in it's lack of passion, or confusing him with it's heartfelt tenderness. "I don't mean that kind of difficult dear heart." She slips away from him, turning in the water to then stand and exit the tub. Donning a white fluffy robe she touches a button to cause the tub to drain and then withdraw into the cabinet. Though her words claim a lack of interest her slow movements and demure posing as she covers up seem designed to tease.
"I told you I was thinking of you, that is true, but I was thinking more of us. I worry how you will take what I have to tell you."
Marcus
What is it you wish to tell me?
Dahlia
Dahlia walks up to him, smiles sadly touching his face, then pulls him to the other room where they can sit down, as equal sitting and not on the bed. "Would you like a drink?" She walks to the still open globe, and pours herself a drink.
Marcus
Very well. I feel I may have need of it.
*he watched her his brow slightly furrowed.
Dahlia
"You might…”
She says pouring him two fingers from her favorite scotch bottle, then handing it to him."I'll try to put your mind at ease, at least a little."
"There is not a lack of affection, nor desire. It is not my intention to break your heart...." she sighs, looks toward the stars outside and takes sip of her own drink.
"I just think this all moved too fast. Overwhelmed and swept us up. That experience to me at least, was as a wake up call. There is a future, but I think we are rushing toward it and it's not something I can continue to do."
Marcus
he sips Is that not how it always is? And had fate shown other things in that future I have little doubt we would not be here now. I did not let trepidation stand in our way before, I would not see it now.
And it is not my heart alone that stands the risk of breaking. I see it in your eyes and in the way you speak even now. You do not want this, you believe that you should be alone. In that you are wrong.
Dahlia
"No no, .. not alone. Just. not, not alone all the time. I've lived, alone, for a dozen years. I know who I am alone. I want to be, together. But can't we work into a little slower? I can't think when we are together all the time when not on duty. All I can competently think about is you, or you with me, when we are always together...." she takes a deep breath.
"It's just that I need more time alone with my thoughts, I love the time we have together, but I'm not ready for that to be all the time. I am worried that if we cannot slow this down, I will lose myself."
Marcus
So you wish me to share bed only for sex, then return to campaign tent? Or you believe I seek to bind you in marriage? I am without mind to this. We are starfleet officers our duties will always come first. he pauses However, is that not what a relationship stands, each sacrifice some of what they are for a better unity?
Dahlia
"No, not re... Telemachus, if we were not on a starship, but living dirtside somewhere this would be simpler. I am going to use that as an analogy to explain what i think I need. At least for now, I'm needing to focus more during the work week, maybe share some of the meals together, or see each other a couple of hours. Look forward to the weekend, a couple of days every week when you do stay, and we wake up together. "
Marcus
he sips So you do wish to live as though we are married. he delivered deadpan
Dahlia
"I want to grow together, come together as two people dating. You assumed that this would be us living as married right away, or acting as it anyway. It was something I had trouble saying no to you. You are a strong personality, and I let myself be ... with you as if ... damn it. I said it clearly. I don't want to call things off, just slow them down, take a back step a bit to learn each other and grow as a couple."
Marcus
That was a joke my love. I will admit I too have been more productive when not distracted by your alluring form.
I have built a version of a holographic shield with Mr. Zorin that can be deployed in the case of a zhyx attack.
Dahlia
"That's great. I hadn't been as productive. I admit, I was wallowing. Having captain Arandak on board and working to try to cure his people reminded me of the kind of work I am capable of and thrive one. One of my goals on board was to maintain my bridge certification. Since you and I had started, I wasn't available for gamma shift duty. I wanted to pull at least one shift a cycle. The captain was amenable, but I still have to put in for it. I didn't because I didn't want to hurt your feelings... or have you volunteer to be on shift with me just to be close to me."
Marcus
You must think me fragile.
laughs
Dahlia
"You are impetuous when it comes to me, and impatient. You get riled when you feel out of control, or unable to help. It's not fragility, it's unpredictability. it's part of why I think we need more time to learn each other."
Marcus
cocks his head That may be. But stating you wished to spend a night absent my company to serve your duty. Anne you have knowledge of my mind towards this. That would. Neither is taking some time apart.
It only sweetens the promise of the time together.
Dahlia
"That's the other thing... I don't like to be ... I don't like the way you assume so much. I like to be asked for my time. I'm a little difficult that way. I like when you take what you want, but my time is what is most valuable to me... I want to be asked for it."
Marcus
You speak in contradictions.
Dahlia
"I told you I was difficult. I described myself to you in song the first night. You should have listened to the lyrics."
Marcus
So you wish me to schedule our time together, yet also spontaneous take what I want.
he raises an eyebrow
Dahlia
She puts her drink down and moves closer to him. "You asked to come in, you ask for me to spend time... when I give you my time, I give you permission."
Marcus
I can have agreement to this.
Dahlia
"See, now we now we are starting again... and I don't have to give you back your necklace. I thought it might be something you would need back." She opens her robe a bit. "Truthfully I've felt a little naked without it."
Marcus
My heart has never left you Anne,
You should continue to wear it close to yours.
But perhaps, bare is better choice for now. he leans in to kiss her neck
Dahlia
She smiles tilting her head to give him more access, her shoulder bared as her robe slipped down her arm.
Marcus walks outside Anne's quarters and presses the chime
Dahlia
Preceding Log
Dahlia closes her log, pausing before asking the question she knows the answer to already. "Computer, who is at my door?"
Computer
Lt Aquila.
Dahlia
"Allow entry, bring lights to 20%"
Marcus
Marcus Enters Greetings.
his voice is warm but unsure
Dahlia
Calling from behind the beaded curtains of the bedroom "I'm in the bath Telemachus, pour yourself a drink if you like."
Marcus
he does so I am glad you were able to have success with the Scrythi. Perhaps they will return favor and free slaves.
marcus moves into the bedroom
Dahlia
"That is in the hands of the diplomats. I want it, bit I would not withhold the treatment to get it. I'm glad you are here. I was thinking about you."
Marcus
With hope it was favorable thoughts.
Dahlia
"Yes, and no... to be honest. It is with love my thoughts and feelings toward you, but frustration as well. Thank you for giving me some time to think, I know it's been filled with work, but you would be surprised how the work helps me to order my mind."
Marcus
I needed time to reassess as well.
he still hasn't come into the bathroom
Dahlia
"I am glad for this."
Marcus
I do not pretend to understand how this as affected you. Given revelations learned in Philadelphia, I suspect you also are not fully aware.
Attempting to do so was my error.
Dahlia
"I have a great deal of practice in dealing with loss, death and destruction. But I find that does not make it easier, piling more dead into my wake. They are as anchors, dragging me down."
Marcus
I am also not entirely certain the Luminaire Zava did not simply take my grief from me.
As you would a lodged projectile in flesh.
Dahlia
"if she did, she did you a favor. But my grief is part of me, i would not have it removed."
Marcus
It was not my intention to have it done.(edited)
Dahlia
"I need you to understand Marcus... I feel grief, and guilt over Sif, and all the rest of them. But there is so much more that I'm dealing with."
Marcus
Give voice to word and share it.
Dahlia
"I ... I am still trying to find that voice. For now, it is too vague. Too confusing to explain."
Marcus
This is not a burden you must carry alone any longer Anne.
One I choose to share with you, over other things that may leave me absent them.
seems like he's not telling her something
Dahlia
She rolls in the tub and pulls herself up over the back, resting her elbows and forearms on the rim, and chin on her hands. She peers through the bamboo beads at him in the bedroom. "I know I'm difficult, but I am trying."
Marcus
he moves in closer through the beads A statement well known. Fortunate for you challenge brings heart to passion, and cock to rise.(edited)
he leans in to kiss her
Dahlia
She lifts her chin from her hands to accept his kiss, likely disappointing him in it's lack of passion, or confusing him with it's heartfelt tenderness. "I don't mean that kind of difficult dear heart." She slips away from him, turning in the water to then stand and exit the tub. Donning a white fluffy robe she touches a button to cause the tub to drain and then withdraw into the cabinet. Though her words claim a lack of interest her slow movements and demure posing as she covers up seem designed to tease.
"I told you I was thinking of you, that is true, but I was thinking more of us. I worry how you will take what I have to tell you."
Marcus
What is it you wish to tell me?
Dahlia
Dahlia walks up to him, smiles sadly touching his face, then pulls him to the other room where they can sit down, as equal sitting and not on the bed. "Would you like a drink?" She walks to the still open globe, and pours herself a drink.
Marcus
Very well. I feel I may have need of it.
*he watched her his brow slightly furrowed.
Dahlia
"You might…”
She says pouring him two fingers from her favorite scotch bottle, then handing it to him."I'll try to put your mind at ease, at least a little."
"There is not a lack of affection, nor desire. It is not my intention to break your heart...." she sighs, looks toward the stars outside and takes sip of her own drink.
"I just think this all moved too fast. Overwhelmed and swept us up. That experience to me at least, was as a wake up call. There is a future, but I think we are rushing toward it and it's not something I can continue to do."
Marcus
he sips Is that not how it always is? And had fate shown other things in that future I have little doubt we would not be here now. I did not let trepidation stand in our way before, I would not see it now.
And it is not my heart alone that stands the risk of breaking. I see it in your eyes and in the way you speak even now. You do not want this, you believe that you should be alone. In that you are wrong.
Dahlia
"No no, .. not alone. Just. not, not alone all the time. I've lived, alone, for a dozen years. I know who I am alone. I want to be, together. But can't we work into a little slower? I can't think when we are together all the time when not on duty. All I can competently think about is you, or you with me, when we are always together...." she takes a deep breath.
"It's just that I need more time alone with my thoughts, I love the time we have together, but I'm not ready for that to be all the time. I am worried that if we cannot slow this down, I will lose myself."
Marcus
So you wish me to share bed only for sex, then return to campaign tent? Or you believe I seek to bind you in marriage? I am without mind to this. We are starfleet officers our duties will always come first. he pauses However, is that not what a relationship stands, each sacrifice some of what they are for a better unity?
Dahlia
"No, not re... Telemachus, if we were not on a starship, but living dirtside somewhere this would be simpler. I am going to use that as an analogy to explain what i think I need. At least for now, I'm needing to focus more during the work week, maybe share some of the meals together, or see each other a couple of hours. Look forward to the weekend, a couple of days every week when you do stay, and we wake up together. "
Marcus
he sips So you do wish to live as though we are married. he delivered deadpan
Dahlia
"I want to grow together, come together as two people dating. You assumed that this would be us living as married right away, or acting as it anyway. It was something I had trouble saying no to you. You are a strong personality, and I let myself be ... with you as if ... damn it. I said it clearly. I don't want to call things off, just slow them down, take a back step a bit to learn each other and grow as a couple."
Marcus
That was a joke my love. I will admit I too have been more productive when not distracted by your alluring form.
I have built a version of a holographic shield with Mr. Zorin that can be deployed in the case of a zhyx attack.
Dahlia
"That's great. I hadn't been as productive. I admit, I was wallowing. Having captain Arandak on board and working to try to cure his people reminded me of the kind of work I am capable of and thrive one. One of my goals on board was to maintain my bridge certification. Since you and I had started, I wasn't available for gamma shift duty. I wanted to pull at least one shift a cycle. The captain was amenable, but I still have to put in for it. I didn't because I didn't want to hurt your feelings... or have you volunteer to be on shift with me just to be close to me."
Marcus
You must think me fragile.
laughs
Dahlia
"You are impetuous when it comes to me, and impatient. You get riled when you feel out of control, or unable to help. It's not fragility, it's unpredictability. it's part of why I think we need more time to learn each other."
Marcus
cocks his head That may be. But stating you wished to spend a night absent my company to serve your duty. Anne you have knowledge of my mind towards this. That would. Neither is taking some time apart.
It only sweetens the promise of the time together.
Dahlia
"That's the other thing... I don't like to be ... I don't like the way you assume so much. I like to be asked for my time. I'm a little difficult that way. I like when you take what you want, but my time is what is most valuable to me... I want to be asked for it."
Marcus
You speak in contradictions.
Dahlia
"I told you I was difficult. I described myself to you in song the first night. You should have listened to the lyrics."
Marcus
So you wish me to schedule our time together, yet also spontaneous take what I want.
he raises an eyebrow
Dahlia
She puts her drink down and moves closer to him. "You asked to come in, you ask for me to spend time... when I give you my time, I give you permission."
Marcus
I can have agreement to this.
Dahlia
"See, now we now we are starting again... and I don't have to give you back your necklace. I thought it might be something you would need back." She opens her robe a bit. "Truthfully I've felt a little naked without it."
Marcus
My heart has never left you Anne,
You should continue to wear it close to yours.
But perhaps, bare is better choice for now. he leans in to kiss her neck
Dahlia
She smiles tilting her head to give him more access, her shoulder bared as her robe slipped down her arm.