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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on May 22, 2012 0:34:05 GMT -5
personal log entry: Arin Soran stardate: 88957.87 ---------------------------------- When I put in for this assignment I really thought it would help advance my career. Its not working out that way at all.
We were sent into find out what happened to the USS November, a Galaxy X class vessel sent into the fringes of Klingon space to monitor Klingon compliance with the cease fire agreement in place with the Federation. We didn't need to search long before the November sought us out. Admiral Payne of the November requested a meetingwith the senior staff of the endeavour over a meal.
What I witnessed frightened me. Admiral Donaldson and Capain Hann kept dancing around the 800 pound gorilla in the room. The evidence was sufficient to conclude that the November has engaged in combat while deployed in this sector of space, yet Admiral Payne denied this. Also the Klingons reported a research facility attacked and a significant quantity of an unstable subspace altering substance was stole by a Federation ship, which could cloak. Payne claimed it was in fact another Klingon faction.
I am skeptical of Paynes claim and his attitude toward the Klingons is mistrust to the point of paranoia. Also Paybe seems to harbor a belief that he has a special calling to save the Federation from any and all dangers, this belief might represent narcissism or perhaps even meglomania. It was clear to me that the man need a total psych eval before continuing his command.
I would have expected Captain Hann and Admiral Donalson to react like the Starfleet officers they are, yet they continued to nod and agree with the man's views at every turn. Even to the point of suggesting the Endeavor help him uncover some suspected Klingon plot to bring WMDs throught the system.
our oders are clear, plus engaging in such illegal activities will endanger the current cease fire and peace negotiations under way. To be fair to Captain Hann his reaction was pretty unreadable and thus it is hard to gauge his reaction to all. But Hann did not object or question any aspect of the man's story and he did offer engineering help to fix the Novembers warp drive alignment problem.
Admiral Donaldson on the other hand enthusiastically embraced Payne's ideas. They both seem to share a deep mistrust and hatred for the Klingons. At the end of the dinner Admiral Donaldson sent everyone away so he and Payne could talk alone. Who knows what they spoke about, but I fear the Endeavour may just destroy the last best chance we have to restore peace between the Federation and the Klingon Empire. No matter what I can't be part of that. My only hope is that captain Hann will listen to reason. But I know that the crew of the Endeavor was for the most part hand picked by Donaldson anf mostly served with him on the Independence. If it comes to that I fear they will mostly side with the admiral on this issue.
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Jan 15, 2015 13:45:54 GMT -5
personal log entry: Arin Soran
Well I'm back on the Pilgrim and despite my happiness at getting re-acquainted with old friends, I can't say I am glad to be back. Unfortunately, the ship is preparing for another long range mission, this time to the Delta quadrant. I am flattered that Jax recommended me for this position, but I am pretty sure I would have turned it down had it been anyone but him as captain. I consider him a friend and it is obvious to me he question's his readiness for the job of captain. Oh, sure he hides it well from the crew, but I'm an empath, so he can't really hide it from me as easy. Honestly I can't blame him for feeling some what overwhelmed by it all. It seems like just yesterday he was a junior officer in engineering. Me, I would probably panic. I came back to support him in this little adventure. The captain needs at least one person he can come to with his problems, and I think it should be someone he trusts.
When the Admiral informed us we would be traveling to the Delta quadrant my heart nearly burst. Don't get me wrong I look forward to seeing the Delta quadrant first hand, but after what happened on the Pilgrim's outing to the Gamma quadrant I am worried about a repeat. Jax was quick to pick up on that and I tried to play it off as best I could. I really don't want to be taking my personal problems to the captain. What I didn't explain was it wasn't me I am worried about. It is my parents, especially my mother. When I went missing and they had no idea if I was alive or dead, it took a terrible emotional toll on them both. When I told them I was rejoining the Pilgrim, neither one of them were happy about it. But, my mother she took it worst of all. I didn't need to be a telepath to sense her fears. I'm worried what would happen to her if something happened to me out here. Jax took the ship by Betazed on a test run of ship systems. He offered me some time to contact my family. While I appreciated the gesture, I declined. I just don't think it would have been a good idea. Especially considering that I have not told them that we will be headed to the Delta quadrant, nor do I intend to do so.
Speaking of personal problems, The ship's new executive officer, Neil Donovan, is something of a mystery. He seems quite shady, like a used hover-car salesman. He seemed to take an immediate dis-trust to Admiral Arak. I asked Donovan about it after the meeting, let us just say his response seemed weak. Donovan told me he felt the Admiral was holding back, which to be honest I felt that too. But, seeing as much of the information in the briefing was classified, it is up to the Admiral's discretion to decide what information we are given. I got the impression Donovan was himself holding something back. But, the most suspicious part was the fact that I was taking a look at him seemed to make him nervous. Which sort of make his new found personal interest in me, suspicious at best. He invited me out for drinks after work, I declined. I am reconsidering. It might be a good opportunity to get to know him better. After all I may be making more of this than it really warrants
After the situation with Nemala Jeliai, I may be over compensating. I realize that she had everyone fooled, but I am the counselor. I am supposed to have a better feel for the crew am I not? I realize that I had little or now opportunity to get to know her, but some how that seems like little consolation. But, it occurred to me that I may be a bit hyper vigilant and should at least give Donovan the benefit of the doubt.
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Post by Lt Cmdr Billie Jo Spencer MD on Jan 29, 2015 13:26:00 GMT -5
Personal Log Entry: Arin Soran
I as if I didn't already feel out of my depth on this mission, now we are dealing with time travel. I realize how lost I feel but, would never admit it to the captain. Jax is looking to me for sound advice on how to proceed, I don't want to screw this up. I actually felt a little ill after learning about the new found complication regarding this mission. I know Jax is concerned, but he seems to be handling it well. I thought his decision to keep Commander Avn on board was sound, after all Avn probably knows more about this situation than anyone else. I really need to continue to question Avn about this matter. Both in regards to what is his peoples past and apparently our future, as well as regarding his peoples culture and what sort of impact this event has had and will continue to have on it after we are gone. Starfleet will likely want a report on this so they can make appropriate recommendations to the Federation science counsel regarding any future action to be taken regarding the Kalin peoples.
On a different, but related matter. Commander Donovan seems more annoyed by all of this as opposed to being worried or concerned. The man's confidence seems unshakable. I don't know if that should impress me, or worry me.
::A short pause.::
I am spending too much time puzzling over that man, I need to quit. Well anyway I need to take some time to brush up on Starfleet temporal displacement policy. Computer end log...
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Post by Lieutenant jg Ezri Tegan on Dec 15, 2015 1:42:47 GMT -5
Arin took another careful sip of her tea and lowered the ceramic mug. She glanced around at the dimly lit room. “Computer increase illumination fifty percent.”
The computer complied immediately and the lighting in the room increased. Arin moved gently across the room to the small table where her candles were set up. With a soft breathe of air from her pursed lips she blew out the flames. She picked up the PADD and pressed a couple of buttons.
“Personal Log, Arin Soren, Stardate: 93153.8. To say the least the events of the past week have been not only historic, but emotionally difficult. The important thing is the war is over and we can begin the task of healing. It would be foolish to think that we won't be dealing with the fallout for the war with the Iconians for a long time to come. We are however, alive to do so. So that is a good thing.
End Log.”
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Post by Lieutenant jg Ezri Tegan on Sept 28, 2022 15:11:38 GMT -5
Ezri looked at the PADD skeptically, "What is this?" Arin smiled, "it's a psychological exam. it should not take you that long I promise." Ezri groaned, "Another one? You guys are not going to start this stuff again are you?" Arin blinked, visibly confused. "Again? I did not see any test results in your file?" Ezri shrugged, "They did all these tests back at the academy." Arin raised an eyebrow, "Really? Those results must have gotten lost." "I don't know. Maybe ask the project people, they may have them." Ezri commented "Project Magellan? Why would they have them?" Arin asked confused. "No the other project. The Administrator lady from the academy." "I will look into it," Arin responded. "But, for now, indulge me and take the tests." "Tests? There is more than one?" Ezri complained. "yes, but for you, they should be quick." "Okay."
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"Psychological assessment of Lieutenant Junior Grade Ezri Ali Tegan, Stardate 99385.12, performed by fleet counselor Arin Soran. After spending some time with Ezri one thing is clear she is highly gifted. Attempts to use standardized testing to measure her intellect were unsuccessful. I did determine she has a genius level of intelligence, but she scored off the charts on the tests I gave her. Although, I am not surprised by the results, and to be sure I don't need an exact measurement here anyway. I basically just wanted to confirm some things I already suspected. Ezri learns much faster and easier than almost anyone else I have tested. She has a phenomenal memory and can remember things quite acutely. She thinks and reasons with incredible complexity. Although not always in the most rational and logical of manners. Ezri is hight creative and does have a vivid imagination. This can be a problem, I will get into that later in the report. After initial testing, I suspect Ezri may have some sort of autistic spectrum disorder. But, without much more testing and observation, I can not confirm this. But, it would make sense based on her behavior on record. Just from my own brief interactions with Ezri, I have seen how she does appear to feel emotions and physical sensations very intensely. And her mind does need a certain level of challenge, regular change, and novel situations to keep her from getting bored. Records indicate that this has gotten her into trouble many times in the past. In addition to that, she seems detached from social norms. Another trait that has led to her being disciplined. All of this is going to present quite a problem for me going forward. But, I will rise to the challenge. From Ezri's own statements I have determined she experiences quite a bit of social isolation, not easily fitting in with any social group. She also reported to me feelings of frustration, anxiety, and boredom when her unusual mind is not given the stimulus that it needs. I must admit to being at a loss as to how to proceed with this particular subject. I am uncertain I am qualified to keep such a fantastic mind entertained. I guess maybe find someone who is. That is all for now, this is an ongoing case I will file more reports as things develop. End report.."
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