Post by Vice Admiral Nyoko Honda on Jun 17, 2015 20:59:10 GMT -5
Honda’s Log Stardate: 92423.68
It has been sometime since i last recorded one of these.The new job is demanding. I am being pulled in many direction though it isn't’ anything I am not able to handle. However truth be told I feel as If I’ve been put out to pastor. Starfleet says I am too valuable to risk on the front lines these days. As result I have been promoted out of my command and placed in command of Starbase.
Truth is I am unhappy with this. I think the Captain Spock said it best, “it was a mistake for you to accept promotion. Commanding a starship is your first best destiny”
Well. Here I am the first time of my life standing on the side lines watching. Being dead for three months has also wreaked havoc on my personal life. Jackson dumped our relationship, a burden of his command, and the inability to handle the loss. I don’t blame him too much really the Captain Job’s is lonely one. But at the same time I do feel slighted. I am of the firm believe you never stop loving someone. Things change of course making that love feasible or practical but it never goes away.
In the wake of all this mess. I always knew that Scott and I were doomed to failure. Although it was fun, and the sex as good, he could never satisfy my needs. Although I wish to believe differently, when I have stripped away all the things that have preoccupied my mind, all the the obstacles that have prevented me from settling down, It is clear to me now, more than ever, that Tanaka Hann is, and has been my one true love.
I had given it thought in the wake my breakup and I had decided, It was time be honest with him, and myself. I can only hope that he has been as patient as he always has been with me. We reconnected on transwarp receiver today. We spoke on a few things. Among them was my desire to come and see him, to be with him, and my daughter just the three of us. To be the family that my mother would be proud of. He agreed. Starships are lacking around at the moment around the station. I’ve decided to take runabout and make way back to Earth Spacedock for a few days leave. I feel I’ll need to do this soon, before my new job begins.
It has been sometime since i last recorded one of these.The new job is demanding. I am being pulled in many direction though it isn't’ anything I am not able to handle. However truth be told I feel as If I’ve been put out to pastor. Starfleet says I am too valuable to risk on the front lines these days. As result I have been promoted out of my command and placed in command of Starbase.
Truth is I am unhappy with this. I think the Captain Spock said it best, “it was a mistake for you to accept promotion. Commanding a starship is your first best destiny”
Well. Here I am the first time of my life standing on the side lines watching. Being dead for three months has also wreaked havoc on my personal life. Jackson dumped our relationship, a burden of his command, and the inability to handle the loss. I don’t blame him too much really the Captain Job’s is lonely one. But at the same time I do feel slighted. I am of the firm believe you never stop loving someone. Things change of course making that love feasible or practical but it never goes away.
In the wake of all this mess. I always knew that Scott and I were doomed to failure. Although it was fun, and the sex as good, he could never satisfy my needs. Although I wish to believe differently, when I have stripped away all the things that have preoccupied my mind, all the the obstacles that have prevented me from settling down, It is clear to me now, more than ever, that Tanaka Hann is, and has been my one true love.
I had given it thought in the wake my breakup and I had decided, It was time be honest with him, and myself. I can only hope that he has been as patient as he always has been with me. We reconnected on transwarp receiver today. We spoke on a few things. Among them was my desire to come and see him, to be with him, and my daughter just the three of us. To be the family that my mother would be proud of. He agreed. Starships are lacking around at the moment around the station. I’ve decided to take runabout and make way back to Earth Spacedock for a few days leave. I feel I’ll need to do this soon, before my new job begins.